Resolutions

Well, the New Year has come and gone...and once again I have been absent for far too long. Silly life keeps getting in the way, and then when I have time to blog about it I am too darn tired.  

Still, before January completely passes us by, I wanted to get my New Years Resolutions out there for all to see. It helps me as he year goes on to be able to come back and look at them. That way I can see where I am excelling and where I need to put a little more work in. So, here they are! Holly's New Years Resolutions: 2013!

• Blog More.
• Since it is January 30th and this is the first blog of the year, I guess you can see how successful that has been. :0) I really do want to blog more. It is something I enjoy. I can't tell you how many times I find myself composing a blog in my head that I just never find the time to get down. (I've been "writing" this one for about 4 weeks.) It relaxes me, allows me to vent, gives me a creative outlet...It is important for me to take the time to do things that I enjoy just for me, and blogging is one of those things. So I want to do it more in 2013, including starting up my Pin A Week again, which is another way for me to stretch my creativity throughout the year. There are so many excuses not to, but my excuse to do it is me. And that needs to start being important too. Which brings me to...
• Learning To Love Myself More
• I have spent years hating the person looking back at me when I stand in front of the mirror. She isn't pretty enough. She isn't skinny enough. She has too much of a temper. She isn't a good enough mother. She isn't a good enough daughter, sister, granddaughter, wife...I see every little fault she has without looking at the things that are good about that woman in my mirror. The way I feel about myself has resulted in putting her last a lot, and I need to stop doing that. Maybe she and I could get along a bit more if I took the time to make her a priority just every once in awhile. Like taking the time to blog, or take some pictures, or writing out those stories that are floating around in my head. I need to start coming to terms with her, because I'm stuck with her for the rest of my life.
• Write More
• Not just my blogs. I need to write more. I participated in NaNoWriMo this past November and loved it! I didn't finish my novel, but I wrote over 50,000 words in one month! And I loved how it felt! I have always loved writing. Always wanted to be a published author, and that can't happen if all I do is lay around dreaming about it. I have to do it. And I will!
• Get Healthy
• So many years everyone, including myself, makes some resolution that sounds similar to "I will lose 50lbs by this Summer!". This just sets a person up for failure, because when you don't reach your goal you end up feeling bad about yourself and thinking you failed. There is no perfect number. People are so hung up on weight that they don't realize someone who weighs 110lbs can be just as unhealthy as someone who weighs 260lbs. It's not about the number on the scale, but about being healthy. I need to stop looking at that number and letting it make or break me. Of course I want to lose weight, but it is more important that I am healthy. For my sake, for the sake of the people who love me, my sons, my husband...I need to be healthy. And this is the year for it. I am kissing 30 at this point. If I'm going to do it now is the time!
• Read More
• I think that one kind of speaks for its self. There are a ton of books out there I have never tackled that I want to. Like writing, it is something I enjoy that relaxes me and I need to do more of it.
• Less Internet
• Everyone needs to spend a little less time on the interwebs these days. Myself included. There need to be days where a person just doesn't even turn on their computer or look at their phone. I need more of those days.
• Live More In The Moment
• Like many people, I worry about the future. I worry where the military is going to send us next, how my husband's career is progressing, what my children are growing into, if God will bless us with another, what I am missing back home, that I am missing out on moments that I can never get back with people I love...And that worry weighs on me like it would anyone. It causes me to snap and be irritable with my children and husband, to frown more than I smile some days, and to miss out on the beautiful moments taking place right in front of me. And I don't like that. I understand that I do need to be conscience of where we are headed, but not so much that I am missing out on what I have right now. I need to grasp onto these moments, because they are going by so fast.
• De-Clutter
• We really have too much stuff. It's time to go through and de-clutter. Keep what is really important, but say goodbye to the rest of it. It will help me to feel less stressed I think, and it will help me to simplify, which I think will be good for the whole family. I have a cleaning schedule in the house, now I just need to add a de-cluttering schedule to that and I'll be good. 
• Sing more.
• The word needs more music!
• Work on my relationship with God. 
• It's a resolution every year, and every year I feel myself drawing closer to Him. It's a good feeling, so I want to keep it going.
• Have another baby.
• Not so much a resolution, but a goal for sure for the Gordon Family in 2013. Parker has requested a girl. I think Daddy has too, and I am pretty sure Sebastian won't care. We shall see what happens.