14 Years Later...

Going unplugged yesterday was nice. Apparently my phone liked the idea so much that it hasn't accepted a call or text message in two days, so if you were trying to get in touch with me I'm sorry. The phone took going unplugged seriously.

I need a journal for my unplugged days, or even just days I'd rather write than type. I did write a little something though, because I said I would.

Today is January 29th. Fourteen years ago, on this day, this guy I'd been dating and I decided to officially become a couple. If I'm being honest, I was already pretty head over heels for this freckle faced, curly haired boy. He'd been one of my very close friends for a couple of years, so when we'd gone on our first couple of dates recently I'd very quickly realized I was hooked. I think it took him a little longer. 😉 

It can't have been too long though. We were engaged a very short four months later, though it would be another three years before I married him. 

I knew I loved him then. I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Even when he drove me up a wall, made me angry, made me want to scream, (really made me scream), made me crazy...I knew we just made sense together. I could never have predicted all the amazing things that we'd share now though. Here. Fourteen years later!

I didn't predict the health issues I would have that would make growing our family so much harder than we'd planned. Or how amazing they would finally be when they arrived.

I didn't predict the military, or the three deployments in three years, one of which that had him away for the birth of his second child. 

I didn't predict the homesickness, the heartache, the tears, the friends, the joy, the hope, the happiness. 

And through every step of it, the stuff I predicted and the stuff I didn't, he's been there. My team mate. My partner. My best friend. 

I couldn't ask for anyone better, and I look forward to seeing what we look like in another fourteen years. Happy "We're Official" Anniversary!

Pregnancy Brain?

Yes, let's blame it on that. Apparently pregnancy has taken over my brain and started to live my life for me. I went through all day today thinking it was Wednesday and trying to figure out what pictures I should use for my wordless Wednesday post, only to realize around 8pm that it was in fact Thursday and I had completely missed Wednesday this week.

And yesterday I completely snapped the head off another mother because I thought she was going to come over to defend her kid (who was messing with Parker at the pool) when in fact she was one of teh few months who was actually coming over to step in and parent. (I did beg forgiveness, but I am not one to go psycho pregnant b!tch on a person like that either. Very odd.)

Anniversary & Ultrasounds

Today was my husband and my six year wedding anniversary...and I'm not going to lie, it really stunk. I know it's not the "strong" thing to admit, but it was really horrible having him so far away for our anniversary. I also, unlike many of my military wife counterparts, don't mind admitting that I am scared to death for him on a regular basis, and I would be lying if I didn't say that I thought to myself at least once today 'What if I never see him again?'. 

That being said, it didn't ruin my day. I didn't dwell on it. It's a part of the lifestyle and you get through the hard days and move on, but it really did stink. It's not our first anniversary spent apart, nor will it probably be our last, but knowing that doesn't make it a whole lot easier sometimes. Still, I remind myself that, for now, he is OK. He will be home soon, and this is just one day of many that we have to get through. And will. So many other people have it so much worse, especially on a weekend like this one. It's hard to feel sorry for yourself when you know there are women out there celebrating Memorial Day at services to honor their fallen husbands.

Besides, today was also the day of our make-up 3D/4D ultrasound!

Flashback Friday: Happy Anniversary!

Tomorrow is my 6 year wedding anniversary. With material like that, it wasn't hard to decide what I was going to flash back to this Friday. I've known my husband for 11 years and in January we will have been together for 10 of those, but tomorrow, May 28th, marks the anniversary of the day I became his Mrs.

Of course, this year it is bittersweet because he is gone. When we got married he wasn't in the military yet, so it never crossed my mind that we'd be spending anniversaries apart. The trend started early though, as he left for BMT on the day of our 2nd anniversary back in 2007. So it's kind of a double anniversary for us every year since. 6 years ago he became my husband, 4 years ago he became a hero. I am so proud and blessed to be his wife.

Remember When?

I remember at some point in my Elementary school career being given the assignment to talk to someone in my family about some major historical event in our countries history. Some of the questions included "Do you remember where you were when 'blank' happened?" and "How did you feel?"

Thankful Thursday: Baby-Versary

Another Thursday...so many more reasons to be thankful! Today is a big one!!!  I am always thankful for my husband and son! Every day they both give me reason after reason to be happy and thankful...but today is a super-duper thankful day. Today is our Baby-Versary!

Flashback Friday: Graduation

Three years ago this week I flew down to Texas to watch my husband graduate from BMT! I had never flown alone, never traveled alone, never lived alone, and certainly never imagined living across the country from where I had grown up, but all those things were happening or about to happen.

I was so very proud of him! I still am!

It was an amazing weekend, and saying goodbye again at the end of it was so hard, but it is also a favorite weekend of mine to look back on. I hope you enjoy it too!

Just Another Manic Monday

Another new pictures, another new quote, another new week. It doesn't even really feel like I had a weekend with hubby on weekend duty all weekend. We'll make up for it next weekend though.

Nine years ago today I graduated from high school. I don't know why that makes me feel so old. I'm only 26, which some days still feels very young to me. (Some days I feel ancient though.) I just can't believe that it's been none years. It just seems like it went by so very fast! It makes me wonder how fast the next 9 years will go. My goodness, my son will be ten in nine years! I don't think I'm even ready to think about that.

Flashback Friday: Because It's The Thing To Do

A few of my friends are doing this on their blogs, so I decided to jump on the bandwagon before it gets too full and I can't find a seat. Can't say if I'll do it every Friday, but it seems like it might be fun.

Cloth Diapering: Day One

I'm trying not to get frustrated...really I am. I understand that these things will take time to get used to, but if any of you out there have some advice I am more than open to it.

I should point out that we have always disposable diapered Parker. We have talked about cloth diapering our next baby, but after an incident that happened with Parker this week we thought we might start cloth diapering him part time. We are still planning on using disposables for bed time and long trips up to Boise, but want to start using cloth during the day.

Today wasn't a complete failure. I can see how, in theory, this could be a good thing for us.

But...

...To start off with we didn't want to buy super expensive diapers, just in case. So we have some pre-fold cloth diapers by Gerber. For some reason, even though I am following the directions, I can't seem to make them fit correctly. I am sure that there is just something simple I'm missing, but it's very frustrating, and not made any easier by my wiggily, squiggily, baby! This is compounded by the fear I have of sticking him when I put the pins in to secure the diapers. (I know they have safe, plastic clips instead of the poky diaper pins, but they didn't have any where we went to get diapers. I'd have to go up to Boise and see if I can find any there.) Being so afraid of sticking him, and his constant wiggles during a diaper change doesn't result in the best fit, even if I was confident that I am doing it correctly.

Of course, 5 minutes after I got the first one on him today, he pooped...and it went everywhere. Luckily, I had the little plastic diaper covers on, but still. I changed him as quickly as possible, and threw the soiled diaper in the wash. I set a load to soak, since I was sure that I'd have more diapers before the day was through. 

I was right. In fact, I think that my son pees more than any other child on the planet. Every 15 minutes or so, he potties. At that rate, I'm changing him every 30-45 minutes to keep him from leaking, even with the diaper covers. (Which is another story all together. I hate the stupid plastic covers. I know they have cute covers with designs and different materials, but I didn't want to spend a bunch of money up front if we end up not going with this cloth diaper thing.)

I just don't know. I'm at a bit of a loss. This is something I'm very interested in for both Parker and any future children we have, but we aren't off to a very good start. I don't have anyone around here I can ask about it, and all the stuff I've looked at online is so expensive. I understand that it's cheaper in the long run, but I don't want to spend a bunch if it ends up not working out. Isn't there some cheap way to do some kind of trial period? Is there something better than the pre-fold diapers? Where is a good place to get them? What are some good covers? Like I said before, any advice is welcome. In fact, I'd love it!!!

On another note, tomorrow is Michael and my 5th wedding anniversary! It's also Michael's 3rd anniversary of joining the Air Force. (He left for BMT on our 2nd anniversary. What a gift!) I love him so much and am so blessed to have him in my life! 

God bless and thank you for reading!